friends?

tss.

ano yun?

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medyo  nakaliutan ko na rin kung paano mag blog sa xanga. HAHA.

ok, so maybe keeping all this to myself is the best idea i've ever had so far. no one knows. people are assuming. well, i'm assuming that they're assuming.. after err, last thursday. it's hard keeping all this to myself. nobody knows. 3 days and i haven't told anyone. i wonder how long this will last..

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i can't believe that he dared do that.

how to keep a girl according to ross? haha.. weh. i've done that. tried that i mean. siyempre it's keep a guy. anyway.. rawr.

last night i realized how i'm so incompletely over you. man, i should've talked to you or atleast waved at you. why didn't i??? grr..

panakip butas? shit.

fuck the dance. fuck the hands.

well, look who's alive.

my blogger's not working. so... the beauty of having alot of blogs. i'm pretty sure that a number of people will be able to read this. but i don't mind. as long as he can't read it.

i don't feel like i am strong enough. cause i'm broken when i'm lonesome and i don't right when you're gone away..

good lord. he said it yesterday. i was shocked. i didn't expect anything this soon. seriously. i don't know why. i just wasn't expecting that. it was like an out of the blue thing and a big wapak on my side.

i'm still in shock.

i didn't reply. why? cause i really didn't know what to say. i've learned my lesson from the last err, you know.. and i want to get to know him first. surely 5 months of knowing each other isn't enough to get me to admit how i feel?

well, we'll just have to see what happens. i know he knows. i'm guessing he just wants to hear it from me. i don't know.

i guess the last "relationship" (if you can call it that) just really hit me hard. i learned my lesson and never again do i want to go through something like that. i don't want to be fooled. i don't want to hurt. i'm really sorry.

it could be wrong you know, coming out the blue..

hrmm.. after a tiring morning in tahanan sta. luisa, i was able to get a little rest back home. then my family headed to rockwell, where they should've just left me ALONE but didn't want to, for my borther's class at gymboree. man, i miss my dad. he's been really busy lately. but it's fine. at least i got to spend quality time with him yesterday. :) after antonio's class we went back home and they left for the shop.

then i had a problem: I HAD NO RIDE GOING TO BREAK. haha.. so i called up everyone. finally rita kwan said she'd be able to pick me up. but i wanted to go a little early so i could get tickets. lucky for me my number one called and offered to pick me up, you rock <b>nikolas</b>!! :) and it was great catching up with you a little. :) thanks for being my tsuper for the night. haha! :)

then i met up with <b>rita kwan, annie, freyja and binky</b> in kaya. ate my dinner, walked around a little, SAW <B>MRS. EALA</B> and even conversed a little, then headed to the rockwell then which was 70% filled by assumptionists and lukers. haha! but it was great seeing everyone again. :)

the first band i saw was.. i don't know. haha! then it was <b>fahrenheit</b> good job you guys!!! :) i'm so proud of big little brother! :) after them was <b>modern amusement</b> good job! sayang one song lang. galing ni <b>joey o</b>! kudos. :) <b>wake up your seatmate</b> was GREAT!!!! cat, jiza and i were cheering our hearts out! kudos once again. :)

oh did i mention the surprise? haha.. i was with my date, <b>cat</b> and <b>dino and jiza</b> all night. figure out what part of that sentence was the surprise. haha!! thanks you guys for a great night. i had SOOOO MUCH fun!!! it rocked, especially with cat my date!! haha. :) go <b>MC!</b> you guys did great in the dance competition!! :)

i didn't want to talk to you last night. i don't know why. maybe just maybe the feelings are still there and i'm trying to stop it but i can't. i don't know. and labo eh. i'm glad i saw you and even if i was still sort of uhmm, feeling awkward around you i guess i was happy to see you. ball na 'to mehn!

after the 3 major bands performed, we all got excited because we had one of the best "seats" in the "moshpit". haha.. right cat? and we knew that bamboo was about to perform. NOT! it was the dance competition. it started around 10 and my curfew was at 11. SHET! thank you daddy, and i love you for extending it. :)

in the middle of the compe, we were so thirsty. we assumptionists were saying that were thirsty, then there was this girl who all of a sudden tapped kaila (did i spell that right?) and said that she was buying a drink. OMG!! you're my hero!! even if i don't know your name. hehe.. you rock.

finally! the moment we all were waiting for. <B>BAMBOO!!!!!!</B> i touched him a lot of times! ok, that kind of sounded bad. haha.. first was when he FINALLY went to my side of the stage to shake our hand and i was SO TOTALLY KILIG. next was when he walked to us and we were all trying to touch him and i touched his toe.. (eww, but hey, it's bamboo.. unconditional love.. haha!) next was when he came near and i was holding on to his pants for like 15 seconds!! and last was when he shook our hands once again and i tired to steal his ring. haha.. i am SO in love. and ira is SO cute. haay... oh and when kaila (still don't know if i got your name right) rolled a piece of tissue and threw it to him, he threw it back to me and i kept it. hehe.. sana it has his sweat.

hands down, that was one of the best concerts i've ever been to. i love you bamboo manalac. man.. thanks again cat, dino, jiza, annie, ysa, freyja, binky and nikolas for a GREAT night.

<i>Hey Kuya JC! You rock! Thanks so much for giving me such a great night!!!!! I love you!!! --Nicole</i>